WOW

awwww...babe u already got my heart...even though u get lost in my eyes...i miss u sooo much...when u left earlier i couldnt help but look at u through the window...and now im on the phone with u i cant stop thinking about how i need you in front of me...i cant stop shaking right now...i think i wanna cry...i feel like it....i guess im extra sensitive and emotional right now cuz i need to be with u and i dont know what to do with myself...im mad i cant see u anymore...i need to look at u bad....Malcolm Chandler i need to see u NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

Look at what my baby wrote about me

Hey baby...i dont know what to say to you except that I love you and sincerely care about you, your feelings, and us. I dont want us to stop talking cuz I honestly dont think I could do it either. I really want to be with you for the rest of my life and I hope we never leave each other. You are the only person I see myself with. I may act mean and like I dont care, but I really do. Im just not used to expressing my feelings to people. But seriously, I dont want you to ever say/think that I dont want to be bothered with you (unless I say it, which I wont) cuz that is nowhere near the truth. Just be patient and trust me, please. I luv u, baby!!!!!!!!!

TIm my uncle(my aunts old boyfriend)....note he's talking about my aunt...

They say you're nothin til you been thru somethin, huh? Well I'm kinda confused fam. How can you be happy for a new beginning and yet so damn sad about an inevitable ending. I've found myself up overnight for the last two nights now matter how sleepy I am. This has to be the most frustrating shit! See, I have ended an important chapter in my life. I think she is my first true love. The thing is, I've known this was over for a long time, and often wondered why SHE was holding on. Now in the wee hours of the morning I realize, it was I who was holding on. I stil love her no doubt, just wasn't working out though. But, to keep a long story short, I was consistantly bieng accused of doing things that I wasn't. I began to resent this behavior and started to somewhat lash out by leaving the home more than normal. However, never cheating or anything of the sort. So, all I left her with is the trust that I was this PERFECT man. Now, we all know this is not usual that any man is faithful(especially a stud like me.lol/kiddin) including myself. But I was. Anyway, now that it is freshly over, I know I'll eventually get over it. But for the first time in many years, I'm in her shoes wonderin what she's doin. The only thing, is there is no trust and I'm left to wonder. Sometimes it takes bieng on the outside to see the other side. Now, I'm startin to feel like a real bitch writing this punk ass shit, however I WILL get over it. Still in all, you live and learn so fuck it....

Spillin my guts for the FIRST and LAST time,
Tim

P.S. I'm Baaaaaack BITCHES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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